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  Terry got behind the wheel. He didn't adjust the seat, just worked the pedals with the tips of his toes. He piloted the big car expertly, not showing off anymore like he used to, just a man doing a job.

  After the car was hidden, we switched to an old Jeep they keep there as a shuttle— Michelle ripped the Mole one hell of a speech last time about having to walk through the junkyard in her spike heels.

  The Mole was sitting on the cut–down oil drum he uses for a chair, looking into the middle distance where he spends most of his time. A tawny shadow flitted at the edge of my vision— Simba, boss of the wild dog pack. The beast came closer, sat on his haunches, tongue lolling, watching with more interest than the Mole showed.

  Terry went into the bunker and came out with a chair for Michelle. A real one, black leather, sparkling clean. She sat down, lit a smoke, took the glass of mineral water Terry brought for her. At home like it was a cocktail lounge.

  Terry sat next to her. They talked, close in. After a while, the Mole would come down from wherever he was, and he'd talk too— as much as the Mole ever does. I didn't wait for that.

  I walked back to the Plymouth, feeling the dog pack around me. I drove slow, meandering my way back downtown.

  Before I went upstairs to my place, I grabbed a pay phone, rang the restaurant.

  "It's me," I told Mama when she answered. "You find the Prof?"

  "Just now. He say he bring the boy tomorrow, okay?"

  "Sure."

  I drove by the restaurant early the next day. Checked the window. Only the white dragon tapestry was standing there…the all–clear flag flying.

  I parked in the alley behind the joint, tapped on the flat–faced steel door, walked through the clump of gunmen masquerading as cooks, went past the bank of pay phones into the dining area.

  I took my booth in the back. Mama detached herself from her cash register, walked over to me, snapping something in Cantonese to the men in the back. She'd gotten tired of me saying no when she asked me if I wanted food…now she just brings it. She sat across from me, served me a portion of her infamous hot–and–sour soup from the tureen, served herself. I blew on my spoon, took some of the potion into my mouth, feeling her eyes.

  "There's something different," I told her.

  She bowed slightly, so slightly I could still see the little twitch at the corner of her mouth.

  "Good. You pay attention."

  "Yeah. What is it?"

  "Ginseng powder."

  "How come…"

  "Ginseng for wounds."

  "I'm not wounded anymore," I told her, tapping my shoulder where the bullet had taken me coming out of that house in the Bronx.

  She bowed again, expressionless.

  I finished the soup. Waited for her to refill the bowl, sipped it more slowly this time— if I emptied it too fast, she'd just deal another round. I looked at my watch: 9:30. Plenty of time.

  "You work soon?" Mama asked.

  "Maybe."

  She left me after that, going back to her wheeling dealing stealing.

  The bell over the front door sounded. Too early for customers, especially with the CLOSED sign displayed. I looked up. The Prof stepped in, a tiny man with the face of an African prince. He was wearing a white and blue poncho that looked like an Indian blanket…it trailed almost to his feet. Behind him, a white kid. Gawky, tall and skinny, pasty–faced, dark hair long in the back, spiked straight up in the front. The kid was dressed in a black chino sport coat two sizes too big, worn over black baggy pants gathered at the cuffs around black Reebok hightops. The huge tongues of the sneakers had little orange circles on them…Pumps…the only spot of color anywhere on him. Clarence came in behind the kid as if his mission was to take up the chromoslack with a canary yellow silk jacket that draped almost to his knees. A heavy gold bracelet dangled from his left wrist— his right hand was in his pocket.

  The convoy rolled over to my booth. The Prof slid in first. Clarence ushered the kid into the next seat, then sat next to him, boxing and blocking. One of the waiters walked past, ignoring us, taking up a position at the front. The place started to bustle. It might have felt like a restaurant gearing up for customers if you'd never spent time in a guerrilla base camp. A stranger was inside— time to see if he'd brought friends with him.

  "It's done, son," the Prof said to me. "This here's Randall Cambridge— he's lean and he's clean."

  So whatever the kid was, he wasn't wired.

  "You wanted to talk to me?" I said to him.

  "I…thought we could speak…alone."

  "We can't."

  "This is kind of…personal."

  I reached for my pack of cigarettes on the tabletop but the Prof was there first— he had hands faster than Muhammad Ali. Always did. I cracked a wooden match, fired both our smokes, blew some in the kid's face. He blinked rapidly, started to touch his eyes. Clarence shifted his weight, twisting the shoulder next to the kid. The kid's hands stayed on the counter— the Prof would have schooled him about the rules for a meet on the way over.

  "Tell me about your mother," I said.

  "She's…Lorna Cambridge. Like I told you. Cherry, that's the name she said to give you. Cherry from…"

  "Yeah, I know. When did she tell you about me?"

  "Before she left. Before she left the first time. I asked her not to go, but she has to. She always goes. Every year. She said, if you didn't believe me, I should tell you something. A man's name. Rex. Rex Grass."

  "Okay, you told me. I got it. Now tell me what you want."

  "It's…hard."

  "So's life, kid. Me too. I'm not a fucking guidance counselor, okay? Spit it out or go back where you came from."

  Clarence slid out of the booth, moved over to a seat directly across from us. The kid didn't move.

  "Shove over, Rover," the Prof barked at him. The kid moved to his right, breathing easier. Clarence watched him the way a pit boss watches the dice roll— any way they came up, he'd deal with it.

  "I think I'm next," the kid said.

  "You said that before. On the phone. Next what?"

  "Next to die," the kid said, a ready–to–break bubble under the surface of his voice.

  "You do this a lot?" I asked him, leaning forward. He wouldn't meet my eyes.

  "Do what?" he muttered, surly now.

  "Tell melodramatic stories to people you don't know."

  His hands gripped the counter but he wouldn't look up, mumbled something I couldn't catch.

  "What?"

  "Fuck you ! I didn't come here for this…you don't care…"

  "You got that right, kid. I don't care."

  "My mother said…"

  "It doesn't matter what your mother said. She thinks I owe her, I just paid it off. I said I'd listen to you, not hold your little hand, wipe your nose for you. All your mother knows, I'm a man for hire. You understand what I'm saying? Not a goddamned babysitter, okay? This is a simple deal— even a punk kid like you could get it. You want to talk, talk. You don't, walk."

  The kid jumped up so suddenly that Clarence had the automatic leveled at his chest before the waiters even had a chance to pull their own hardware. The kid gasped, flopped back down like his legs had turned to jelly. He put his face in his hands and let it go, crying.

  Clarence watched him for a minute or so before he reholstered his gun. I exchanged a look with the Prof. He shrugged his shoulders.

  We waited.

  The kid sat there crying, ignored. The rest of the joint moved into what it does: phones rang, people came in and out the back door, Mama's messengers and dealers and traffickers went about their business. The kid sat through it all, unmoving, a stone in a stream.

  Starving to death in a restaurant.

  When he looked up at me, his eyes were yellow–flecked with fear. If he was faking it, he was the best I'd ever seen.

  "They have a way of coming for you. Getting inside. I didn't believe it at first. When Troy and Jennifer did it, everybody said they jus
t wanted to be together. You know what I mean? Together forever. Kids talked. Like, maybe, she was pregnant or they wanted to get married and their parents wouldn't let them. But those kids…they don't know us. Our parents…it wouldn't matter. They wouldn't stop us from doing anything. Then Lana did it too. And Margo. They all did it."

  "Did what?" I asked him.

  "Died," the kid said. The way you explain something simple to someone simpler.

  "They got done?"

  "Huh?"

  "Somebody killed them?"

  "No. I mean…yes. I don't know. Suicide, that's what they called it. In the papers. Suicide."

  "And you think it wasn't?"

  "It was…I guess. I mean…they did it to themselves and all. But I think, maybe, they had to do it. And I will too."

  "I don't get it, kid. People kill themselves. Kids kill themselves. They go in groups. Couple of kids, they're so sad, they play around with the idea, push themselves over the edge. The next kid sees all the weeping and wailing and special funeral services and how everyone knows the dead kids' names for the TV coverage. He doesn't focus on how they won't be around to bask in the light. He puts himself in that place…like he could have the funeral and be there too. And then goes to join them. It's a chain reaction— they call it cluster suicide. It's okay to be scared— that's a natural thing. But you don't need a man like me, okay? What you need, you need someone to talk to, like…"

  "That's how it started !" the kid blurted out. "In Crystal Cove."

  The Prof threw me the high–sign. I got up, left the two of them alone.

  Clarence followed me out the back door. I stood there, watching the alley. It was empty except for my Plymouth and Clarence's gleaming British Racing Green Rover TC, both moored under a NO PARKING sign. The sign didn't have any effect on the community, but the graffiti did. You looked close, you'd see the spray–painted scrawls were really Chinese characters. Max the Silent, marking his territory with his chop.

  I lit a smoke, thinking about Cherry. I left it alone— I'd play the tapes later.

  "That is one weak sissy whiteboy, mahn," Clarence said, the Island roots showing strong in his young man's voice.

  "He's just scared, Clarence. It happens."

  "Yes, it happens to us all. Fear is a devil, for sure. But that boy, he is on his knees to it."

  "It's not my problem," I said.

  "Whatever it is, my father will find out. No man can hide the truth from him."

  I glanced sideways at Clarence. I knew how he felt about the Prof, heard the pride in his voice. But I'd never heard him give it a title before.

  "Yeah, the Prof is a magician."

  "A magician, yes, but with the heart of a lion. He sees it all, but he never fall."

  I started to tell this young man that I had come up with the Prof. He was the closest thing to a father I ever had, too. Made the jailhouse into my school, turned me from gunfighter to hustler. Saved my life. But Clarence, he knew all that. He was another savage cub whose heart the Prof found.

  He'd been a pro even then— a young gun, working muscle for Jacques, the Brooklyn outlaw arms dealer. Up from the Islands he was, but he dropped straight into the pits, where the money was. The only thread that bound him to the straight side of the street died when his mother did. He was a quiet, reserved young man— his gun was much faster than his tongue. Jacques had him marked for big things, but Clarence got caught up in my war.

  Clarence was there— waiting for me when I came out of that house of killing. He lay in the weeds, a few feet from the body of a cult–crazed young woman who would have taken him out with her long knife but for the Prof's snake–quick shotgun. Lay there in the quiet, lay there after the explosion, lay there during the gunfire. He asked the little man then, what do they do? Wait, the Prof said. Wait for me. And if I don't come out? Wait for the cops, the Prof told him. And die right there— die like a man.

  After that night, the Prof had his heart. They bonded tighter than any accident of birth, flash–frozen together forever.

  Me, I had a body. A baby's body.

  I smoked through a couple more cigarettes in silence. A slope–shouldered Chinese stepped out the back, jerked his thumb over his shoulder. We went back inside.

  The Prof was sitting next to the kid, holding an earless teacup in both hands. The kid had one too.

  I took my seat. The Prof made a flicking gesture with his hand. Clarence walked over, put a slim, immaculately manicured hand on the kid's shoulder.

  "You come with me, mahn," he said softly.

  The kid got up. Clarence made an ushering gesture with his hand, and the kid started off to the back, Clarence shadowing. They'd be heading to the basement.

  The Prof watched them go. Then he turned his milk chocolate eyes on me. I waited to hear what he'd pulled out of the kid, but he wasn't having any.

  "Tell me what you know, nice and slow," the little man said.

  "Already told you."

  "Not about the boy, about his momma. You really go back with her?"

  "Yeah. I guess. Maybe. There was a girl. Cherry. A long time ago. In London. Just before I went over to Biafra."

  "She didn't have a kid then?"

  "I don't know. Wouldn't be this kid, anyway…he's in high school, right?"

  "Yeah. Just finished in fact. He's got a weak rap, but it's not no trap. The fear is real, bro."

  "Lots of people scared."

  "His nightmares could be gold, partner. Could be cream in those dreams. Tell me the rest."

  "She was a waitress, or whatever they call those girls work in the clubs."

  "Runway dancer?"

  "No. It wasn't a nightclub, one of those Playboy–type restaurant things. Everybody dressed up, fancy…but Vegas–glitz, not real class, you know what I mean? All matching little outfits for the girls…not topless, but just about…little black things, laced up the back, fishnet stockings, spikes, look–but–don't–touch, you got it?"

  "That fluff–stuff won't play today."

  I nodded my head in agreement, thinking of Peter, that poor sorry bastard, saving up his lunch money for weeks to buy a few minutes of delusion.

  "Yeah. I was in this cheap hotel, staying low, waiting. We had to fly out of Lisbon, something about the Portuguese government backing the rebels…I never did understand it all. Anyway, I knew the man who was supposed to come for me…the same guy I'd met over here, right? But two guys knock on the door, call me by name, ask if they can come in. I figure, it's a new passport or something, but they were outsiders. They knew all about the Biafra thing, but that wasn't their play. What they had, what they said they had, was a whole bunch of diamonds. Handfuls, they said. Right out of the mines in South Africa. They gave me a whole lot of stuff about some mercs who wanted to pipeline it back to the States, how I could hook up with them on the island before we jumped in."

  "What island?"

  "São Tomé. Little tiny island, just off the coast of Nigeria. Biafra was landlocked by then, it was…you sure you want to hear this?"

  "Play it out till it shouts, son."

  "All right. They asked me to have a meet. At this club. Where Cherry worked, only I didn't know her then. I went every afternoon, for about ten days. One guy was always there, this guy Rex."

  "Rex Grass, the kid said."

  "Grass, that's just the way Limeys say 'rat,' Prof," I said, glad for once to be telling my teacher something he didn't know. "That wasn't the name he gave me."

  "Motherfuckers talk some strange shit, don't they?"

  "I guess. We had this corner table, like regulars. It was always this Rex, but one day there was a couple of Chinese guys, from Macao. Another day it was an Indian…like from India. Rex was the middleman, putting it all together."

  "The guys who sent you over, you didn't tell them anything about this?"

  "There wasn't any way to tell them, even if I wanted to. They gave me the cash in the U.S., the passport, told me they'd make contact at the hotel. That was it." />
  "Ice, huh?"

  "That's what they said. I was just listening. I was a kid myself, right? But I was trying to do it right."

  "So…?"

  "So this Cherry, she was the regular girl on that table. It wasn't the kind of joint where they'd stuff tips into her bra, but her butt was always bruised from the pinches. I never tipped her myself— I wasn't picking up the tab. I get back to my place one time and I find a slip of paper in my jacket pocket. Just her name and a phone number. I called her, and we spent some time together."